The Shades of Doubt

The divine guidance often comes when the horizon is the blackest. — Mohandas Karamchand (Mahatma) Gandhi

Thoughts enter the mind late at night telling you, no screaming at you to stop what you are doing! What makes you think you, YOU, can succeed? Why are you even trying? There are smarter people than you and you have the audacity to think you can make something of yourself?

Nagging thoughts which enter the mind at three in the morning keeping you awake, making you nervous, this is the universe speaking, scolding you into giving up. You sit up; wide awake but those discouraging thoughts just won’t go away. Fear sets in and the money situation comes to the front of your thoughts. The sharks are circling, waiting to attack, waiting to devour you at any moment and there is not a damn thing you can do to stop it.

Or is there?

At some point or another we all have doubts about the course we find ourselves on. We wonder if what we are doing will actually produce any type of monetary benefit for us and how much if any. We become discouraged because we have been working for years, sometimes decades, to achieve some measure of success in our lives, but to no avail.

After all this time we still find ourselves living from payday-to-payday, never moving ahead and often going backwards. We find our lives have not changed at all and we become discouraged because we still have nothing. What the hell happened to all that motivation talk from speakers and authors who swear our lives would change if we did A, B, and C?

Nothing. We still have nothing and our lives have not changed, our situation is still stagnant, and we are constantly criticized for wasting time. No one believes in us and we wonder if they might be right. Our future looks dim and the sleepless nights, consumed with worry, are not helping.

No one is immune from this situation but, yes there is a but, there is a difference between those who let worry consume them and those who actually succeed and create a great life for themselves. And that difference is one little five letter word: FAITH.

The achievers have faith in themselves, for it is faith in the dream which separates the haves from the have not’s. It is faith which keeps the dream alive despite the constant attack upon it. It is faith which calms the mind and discards the doubts. It is faith which brings you from the darkness into the light. It is faith which encourages you to continue working to achieve the dream when reality is encouraging you to quit.

I was told the other day, in so many words, that motivation is nothing but a scam, a scam to relieve you of your hard earned money with platitudes and promises that if you followed particular steps your life would be changed and you would be a millionaire. But the only person you are making a millionaire is the person you buy the product from. The problem is there is some truth to this way of thinking. I said some, not all.

There are those out there who encourage you to buy their product, with the promise you will be rich. The other day I saw a news story about such a company being sued for failure to deliver on that promise. I don’t know where it is going to go, if anywhere but the fact remains someone purchased something with the belief they could get rich with no work involved. It doesn’t work that way. It never has, it never will.

The program in question may in fact work, I don’t know. What I do know is there is no such thing as free money. Someone always pays the price, in some way. Sometimes success demands a very high price and if you are not willing to pay it, you will lose.

Lately I have been having second thoughts about the path I am on. Doubts have materialized in my mind and I began to wonder if what I am doing will ever make a difference for someone else. I have no indication, no proof that anyone is even reading this blog. In fact all indications are I am in negative territory and have been since the beginning. I am finding discouragement to be a constant companion.

Yet, yet I cannot help but think things are about ready to change for the better. My mind, my thinking cannot stay in the field of doubt. I feel, for the first time in my life of 60 plus years, that I am about ready to break out of this rut, this mold I find myself in. And I cannot shake this feeling, nor do I want to.

Since November 2010 I have been working towards this moment in time and space, with no evidence of my life getting better. I wonder if anyone else feels the same, or am I all alone in this element I created for myself. I don’t know but I do know I cannot, I will not give up. I have faith, a lot of faith that what I am doing is worthwhile. That you my reader, if there are any out there, that you find these words encouraging and inspiring. So much so that you will go out and build your own dream, your own paradise.

The Bible says to plant seeds and you will receive a harvest. What happens when you plant a lot of seeds and no harvest? Then you water and take care of the seeds and still no harvest? This is what I call discouraging. Yet with all the negativity from the family, friends, strangers, the mainstream media, our elected leaders, everyone it seems, why do I feel so optimistic?

I come back to the word faith. A winner has faith in themselves, especially when everyone, and all the odds, are against them. This self-ingrained faith is what moves an individual forward, it moves me forward. I can’t speak for you but for me without my faith, the faith in Divine Providence, the faith in myself, I would be lost. This faith yields a confidence in myself I cannot shake. And when conviction takes hold, belief cannot be far behind.

I encourage you to never give up on your dream. The odds may be against you but never surrender to them. Another reality is you may not succeed in achieving your dream – in your lifetime. Many a people have received fame after their death. It’s not fair but it is a reality we must all face. Despite this possibility you must always be true to yourself. To live your dream, strive to live your dream.

Never let the shades of doubt consume you. Acknowledge them, but never accept them. Realize the universe is testing you; it is testing your faith and your determination. Make no mistake about it this test is painful, sometimes very painful. But if you really have faith, and you believe with all your heart, the universe must at some point surrender. When is the big question.

I don’t know you but I know what you are capable of. How do I know this? Because you and I may be a lot alike. Scared, doubtful, wondering if the pain is worth it. Let me reassure you, it is.

There is nothing magical about success, but there are mechanical steps which must be engaged in for success to happen. The biggest of these mechanical steps is work. Without honest, mind-bending, mind-boggling, doubt-filled work, nothing, absolutely nothing will happen to make your life better.

Hence I recommend you accept this concept and move on. The sooner you do, the sooner your dream will become a reality.


About GP McClure

I am a technical writer with over 30 years of writing experience in a variety of subjects and topics, covering a wide range of industries, but specializing in aviation. I have lived in the San Diego California area since 1972 for the most part but spent some years in Japan and Alaska, thanks to the United States Navy. I retired from the Navy in 1992, having served 20 years of active duty in the aviation field.
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